I believe that we have the power to heal ourselves. If we just keep our hearts and minds open the answers will come. These are some of the things I need to remind myself of. To a certain extent I am ill because I chose to continue to live in a way that fed into my illnesses. I decided to believe the lies that spread from the dark areas of my heart. I became comfortable with pain. Things do happen randomly and there are moments of pure coincidence, but I cannot ignore the facts. In my particular case disease was brought on in part by a string of poor decisions. The snowball effect came by coincidence. Things that were out of my control became parts of my life. And that is where I got lost. So deep in my pain and sadness that I didn’t know how to stand up and climb out of it. Thankfully, more chance encounters occurred and I slowly started to move upward. I’m making my way out of the hurt. I’m shining light on the dark areas in my heart. And I’m debunking the myths and lies that have haunted me for so long. One of the most important lesson I’ve learned so far is that there will be many battles in life, and just because I have won some easily, doesn’t mean that I can effortlessly conquer them all.
I know that for other people modern medicine is the only thing that can save them. Medication, therapy, surgery, and a lot of other helpful things exist in this world for a reason. And that is perfectly fine. Some people are more comfortable with using hard facts and scientifically proven methods to gain there health. This is the logical thing to do. And with so many unknown things being put in our food and in our air, it can take more than meditation, real food, and herbs to heal someone. But for me, I can’t keep supporting industries that I believe do not care about me. Yes, there are medical professionals who don’t just look at you as a paycheck. They want you to be in good health as much as you do. But it is more often that I have found people who just want me to take more medications without giving a second thought to alternative methods of treatment. Scratching the backs of pharmaceutical companies. And that’s why for now I’m opting out of that system. I’m going to find my own way.