Something weird is going on inside. I just. I have….feelings…or something. I don’t know. I don’t want to acknowledge them. I want to sweep them under a rug. I just…I’m afraid I guess. But at the same time I’m curious. I want to know what they’re about. But I don’t want to face possible negative consequences for following them. I don’t even know if there are negative consequences. I don’t know. It’s an experiment to me. But I don’t think it’s fair to treat people that way. Even if I don’t actually see people as test subjects. Human error just fucks up the perfect world in my head. Damn you emotions.