How do I keep myself positive? How do I make sure that I keep on track? 

I really can’t even begin to explain what is going on.

I feel like…there’s a part of me stuck within myself. And I don’t even know how to reach it. I don’t know what to do to get it out. 

I love myself. I do. I don’t do a good job of showing it though. 

I feel like…I need a LOT of work.

Like, no one is perfect. Duh. But at the same time, I shouldn’t be happy with mediocrity. But I still have times when I am just TOO HARD on myself. And that becomes counterproductive. 

A few months ago I went to see a counselor. And she told me to focus on just making myself feel good physically. Like eat when I’m hungry, get enough sleep, take walks, ect. A few days ago one of my friends told me to work on prioritizing my time, so that I can fully devote myself to all of my endeavors. She suggested that I make a schedule with some time for school work, some time to meditate, time to work out, ect. Both of these suggestions are fairly basic. And honestly, I know that I should run my life in a similar way. But I just haven’t been able to do that for the past couple of years. I’m just now putting things back together in a way that actually is holding up to the bad things.

Right now I guess I’m just scared. Things are good right now. They’ve been good for the past couple of months actually. But my pessimism is trying to come out and trip me up. And now is not the time to fall. Because I don’t know how long it will take me to get back up. And I don’t have time to find out. 

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  1. tokillahumblebee said: One moment at a time, dearie. *hugs*
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